lifey life

hey have you every had one of those lifesituations
where like the only people who want to talk to you
and keep you company
and hang out with you and be like the best friend in the world to you
happen to be so clingy and like way too nice and it makes you wonder if everysingle person who you've ever loved or been like hella nice to saw you as the poorlittlesapofaperson that you see in that one borderline annoying but still really genuinely well intentioned and thus lightweight admirable but still borderline annoying friend?
and then you're like fuck, i should start being more mean to people so they dont think i'm a pushover. but then once you start doing it your friends are like "why are you such an asshole to me now?" and you're like, fuck, i'm sorry, i was trying to be a tough guy but i guess i dont have that going for me.
and then you wonder what you do have going for you.
and then you're like fuck, my life sucks, even though it doesnt, and i dont have any friends except for this one person who's like in love with me who i dont want to be in love with me because they're cool but like not that cool, and all my best friends have lives which are equally as stressful/busy as mine except for they have jobs/responsibilities to take care of and thus have no time for me and my sulky no-job havin ass.
and then you can't sleep at night because not only all that shit that i just said, but the only girl you've ever loved is like way too distant and it would never work as things are now and even though you think about her all the time and would totally like marry the bitch if you could you have nothing to say to her or no reason to call her other than to be like hey, bitch, i still love you, and even then it's like whats the point because even if she loved you back which is doubtful you're still hella fuckin distant and all you want in life is a job that doesnt completely suck and that wont act hella nice to you and then never call you back or give you any hours but thats like damn near impossible given your intense level of laziness in life and the limited amount of jobs in the economy and its to the point where your mom is basically dressing you because she's the only one with money and refuses to buy anything you think is fucking awesome so prettymuch you're coming way to close to being a mini-her...?

no?

well that's cool coz i cant relate either.

haha... ... _sucks.